This post is an attempt to describe an ongoing exploratory experience that I am observing as I live my life. Because it is evolving and still fresh to me, I don’t know how clearly I will be able capture it, reflecting it back to you through words. Yet it is important enough to attempt to process this experience through writing, which often leads to clarification one way or another!
Disclaimer: I am not attempting to sway beliefs, or even make any absolute claims for my own beliefs. I am exploring my observations using the mind God gave me. I believe it blesses Him when I explore this world and the entity of Love. I do not think He would be offended by me desiring to understand and find peace with the Love that endures all things.
Learned helplessness. This phrase was first brought into my life in the context of Domestic Violence. We were studying why women stay in abusive relationships, and the term “learned helplessness” was one reason we explored. Many women who were raised in abusive homes may have never believed they could do better, deserved better, or that “better” even existed. They may have watched their own mother endure beatings, learning that this is how things go – this is normal. I began to delve deeper into how what we learn… what we are taught… consciously or subconsciously (by teacher and/or student) sets the direction of our sails for life.
While I was studying this phrase, ironically enough (or by the Universe’s beautiful synchronization) I was going through a most difficult time. I was not physically abused by my lover, but he made choices that were harmful to our relationship and to our future. I refused to participate in his un-health by staying and began to explore why I allowed this pattern to happen repeatedly (second chances). I began researching, reading, and practicing uplifting spiritual practices as guided by Deepak Chopra, Wayne Dyer, and of course with a foundation of the Christian principles I had grown up with. Wayne Dyer teaches of using “I am” affirmation statements. Rather than saying “I am trying to be better at….” one would rather claim the affirmation and say “I am healthy”. I began practicing this and could not help but remember in the Bible when the God of the Universe would say “I am”.
This God of the Universe I refer to as Love (the ultimate positive force, pretty difficult to deny it’s existence. The One entity that leads people to softness and to goodness). Love is everything and at the same time a peaceful nothing that requires no effort and no striving. LOVE IS. As my “I am” statements began to truly manifest the concepts I was claiming for my life, the romance of my Love whispered in my ear “You are my Beloved, upon you My favor rests”. This has always been one of the most romantic and captivating verses in the Bible for me (Luke 3:22). This is when Jesus is baptized and the holy spirit descends from Heaven upon him. God is blessing him with his spirit, giving him the empowering spirit to conquer death. Fast forward to Jesus’ death and resurrection. Jesus died, conquered sin and death, and then ascended to Heaven, ALIVE in love.
A paraphrase of this event described here: Earlier, Jesus had told the disciples that after he ascended, the Holy Spirit would come down upon them with power. At Pentecost, they received the Holy Spirit like tongues of fire. Today, every born-again believer is indwelt by the Holy Spirit, who gives wisdom and power to live the Christian life.
So here we are, right now, POST-RESURRECTION! Wow! Jesus physically came, lived, died, and resurrected and physically showed us the power of Love. Then he handed it over to us and empowered us to LIVE this love. My experience from growing up in the church was rarely an empowered celebration, adventuring in this love, but rather a muddling in the “we are so helpless without God” mentality. Yes, maybe so, but the Spirit is IN US! So we are NEVER without God! How exciting! Why do we not live our lives this way? I see things my religious friends post about all of the ways they are trying to ask God permission to ‘go’ and ‘BE’. God is in you, and when you embrace that beautiful LOVE, there is no question on how one should live. Love is alive and it is so obvious!
Yes, there will be stumbles and even falls, but this is not a battle of you against the other; or you seeking permission from the Other. This experience should be you empowered by Love. Whatever that means to you, be it art, business, healthcare, petting dogs or giving away all of your belongings, as long as it is done with a true spirit of good, positive love, it is Godly, because God is in you once you have acknowledged the mighty power of Love.
Oppression reigns when we live in a way in which we ask others for permission to live our truth. Oppression reigns when we tear each other down for variations in understanding of doctrine.
I look at the many religions of the world and see an ever-loving, powerful, omnipotent LOVE who is reaching out to the one’s He loves. I believe Love is doing anything possible to communicate this phenomenon to us; through various events in history, recognized personally or by millions of people. Love reaches out to us sometimes every so quietly, with a gentle whisper. And then Love sends the Messiah, Jesus Christ, to reach out on a grand scale.
There are other events recorded in history of people dying and rising from the dead. Maybe this happened, maybe it did not. Would the master of the universe understand when history was lost between generations? I’m confident this is so. So when one story was lost through the generations, Love desperately reached out again, eager to interact with creation, to experience the beautiful music only possible when one is there to listen. I celebrate the beauty of the Lover forever pursuing it’s Beloved.
I live in this empowered beauty. The Love of the Universe has reached out to me, giving me permission to run in freedom, truth and light. I shall not fear, for Love is with me. Two truths cannot co-exist. My Love reigns and has already conquered death, so I shall live in this truth, embracing everything that the universe has to offer. What a beautiful life.
Do not live in the part of the story in which we are helpless without the Love of the Almighty. This love has already been handed to us, the Ultimate Gift. Let us celebrate and dance with victory, and live each day with divine perspective. We have all that we need; we have Love.