Well it happened today. As it has before and will again. The pressure of everything piled up until it boiled over. It reminds me of the arcade game where you drop a gold token down a spout, aiming it to try and make it stack up against other tokens until they eventually push the others off the edge. Except this isn’t a fun prize when my stresses stack up; and I don’t really know who’s behind dropping the tokens in my life, but whoever it is needs to knock it off!
All jokes aside, I suppose ultimately the majority of my stress is self-induced; be it bad decisions or inviting other people into my life who make bad decisions, or just the mere fact that I constantly take on new, daunting tasks such as law school, and heck, why not throw in a cross country move, too. Most of the time I handle this juggling act just fine, but then there are times where just one coin is added – a coin that may not in itself be that big or weigh that much – but that one coin, pressing against all of the others leads to a raining down of gold coin STRESS: mental breakdown.
There is a theory that stress hormones are released in tears – not sure if that is true or not, but I’d be willing to bet on it because I generally feel better after a good cry (AND after a call to someone I’m close too, babbling through my tears).
So I am writing to remind myself that hardships will come and they will go. Rather than seeing difficult times as a reason to stop or give in, I choose to push on, because better things are ahead. This moment is difficult, but this too shall pass. In the grand scheme of life I am so blessed because my family is healthy and present, I am healthy and have my whole life ahead of me. The little things adding up to so much today will be a thing of the past so quickly. My goal is to remember this when troubles come.
I hope you will remember, too.